Looking forward into 2025

Aldwick Beach

Today I took a walk with my lovely daughter and already, one year old Frankie. It was a beautiful day so we wrapped up and headed to the beach. As I stood there wondering what that pile of white stones were (I still have no idea) staring out towards the sea and blue sky… I felt I was glimpsing into 2025. Expansive and vast, adventures yet to unfold. What I thought I knew, what my intentions were are on hold, with thanks to an almighty nudge from the universe to slow down, to be more present with myself, to connect with myself more and show myself unconditional love. In short I have to re-parent myself. A concept unfamiliar to me….what I mean is, I understand the concept but to put the concept into practice is one I’ve shied away from. If I’m being absolutely truthful I’ve subconsciously emotionally by passed my own trauma in order to adult and hold space for others. But even when as an adult we can be the observer, bear witness to others behaviour towards us..we can forgive and understand, the trauma is held at a cellular level in our tissues and the deep recesses of our memory and consciousness.

It means I have to slow down my chaotic mind, detach from technology, often, create boundaries I must stick to, and basically show myself some respect; to honour my inner child…she needs some love. Whenever I have those big feels, the anxiety, the worry, the self loathing and so on...this is my inner child begging to be heard. I need to learn to hold her, to love her and in order to hear her I must approach life a little slower. She’s been shouting wildly and I’ve chosen not to hear..until that choice has been taken out of my hands. As these things often do. It does not mean all my grand plans for 2025 have to be shelved but I have to accept they will not be achieved yesterday.

And right now…I’m okay with that.

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